Relationships?

I know I'm pathetic, it's been 18 years and I've NEVER dated before.
Well, who would date a fat ugly pig like me anyway? So it's normal I guess.
People are just so fond of the outer-look now.
Girls must be hawt and sexy, that's what the boys are looking for.
I rarely see plus-size girls holding hands with a boy.
Not even on Valentines Day.
MAYBE there are some, but how few is it? 2%? 5%?
Hmm. Makes you wonder huh.

Nobody cares about the inner-beauty no more.
As long as they're hawt, they're good to go.
Who cares if they're a saint or a bitch.
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18 years. I've never fallen for anyone.
Why? I know how I look, and I know my chances. So falling in love is risky.
I just shut myself up.
For them to accept a girl like me, pft, I must be dreaming.
I'm just trying to be realistic here.

No matter how hard I try to doll up myself, I'm still just a fat pig.
I look at my photos in disgust.
Why should I even try dolling up myself? I can just wear a t-shirt and a jeans looking the same in every picture.

This is not just low self-esteem.
It's the freakin truth of reality.

3 more days...

Firstly, I'm not ranting, I'm just saying.
Okay I lied, I'm ranting lol. Just let me rant after a tiring day.

Today was CHAOTIC.

It's like, everything's gone haywired!
And why has this happen?
"I need 30 sets please."

OMFG. THIRTY!? THIRTY!????

So I've got 4 boxes packed ready.
Each box's got 7 packs, so that makes? 28 sets.
I'm left with 2, but hey, it's not that simple!
What about the other customers? They just came ALL TOGETHER AT THE SAME TIME.
WHY CAN'T THEY JUST COME LITTLE BY LITTLE?
If they just want to have sets, I'm totally fine, I'll just pack'em for you.

BUT NOOO.
They started choosing and picking and asking lotsa questions like,
"What's this call?"
"What's it taste like?"
"Is it good?"

I mean, HELLO. BUSY HERE. CAN'T YOU SEE?
I was actually busy helping two customers with their loads.
They're asking for 300g each and I was busy getting it for them.
I have to weigh and pack each of'em in a freakishly small table while answering those aunties their questions. WTF? I mean, if you want it, buy it, don't start bothering us with questions when we're busy and we don't even know if you're gonna buy them or not.

It was plain pandemonium.

Surprisingly, that pandemonium lasted not more then an hour.

Since it's the last 3 days now, I'm gonna play safe tomorrow.
I'm going to head down to the shop an hour earlier and start packing a few more boxes.
Just to play safe. I'm not gonna risk going through that pandemonium again.

But in return, we earned quite a lot today. =3
Better then the weekends infact! My grandpa was saying that the "Yu Sheng" business is actually improving, better then last year! I'm really glad. That means all the effort's paid off. Sad that I couldn't get commissions though LOL. Kidding. I'm happy with my pay. Not gonna be greedy and ask for more. ('w'*)

Oh and errh, I don't know how, but I kinda got myself some light injuries LOL.
3 scratches.
It must be the bloody hell stapler lol. 2 of'em's fine, but one of the scratches hurts. Well it bled a little so I don't see why it won't hurt.

So that proves what? Staplers are UKES.
Why? 'Cos they like scratchin people. =3

Now I need some healing...

Going Haywire

Work is tired as hell.

Seriously. My mind's going haywire.
I need my sleep, and my mangas.



My muscles are aching everywhere, it hurts A LOT.
That's what I get for not excercising regularly.
Laziness led me to my retribution.

And I find working with my brother a pain in the neck LOL.
WTF MUCH. (-w-;)

Anyways, I'll be continuously working for the next 3 days and a half.
Friday, being it the most hectic. Won't be home till 10pm. (I think.)
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I can feel the presence of the Lord now...
But for the sake of MONEY,
I must persevere! Yep. Persevere.
And stop whining like some spoilt rich bitch.